When my husband was here, he made it a point to make sure I had some "me" time. Even if that meant going to the store by myself. No kids running crazy, wining, crying, or bouncy off the walls. (Any mom knows, grocery shopping by herself is like a vacation). I went from being the mom at my own home, to just being a mom living with my mom who tells me what to do and when to do it. I thought I was an adult -__-. Not to mention, I came back home while my husband is away so that I wasn't alone, and I've been nothing but alone since he left. But I am happy we are saving a lot of money in order to buy a house when he returns.
My oldest sister and my little brother have been my main supports, and my sister lives in Texas supporting her loving soldier as well. We FaceTime and she makes me laugh and it makes the time go by just a little quicker. Even though I'm super pissed that my hubby is STILL at reception doing absolutely nothing and won't ship to his unit until NEXT Friday, it has been so nice to stay in contact through the phone for an extra 2 weeks. But I am so ready for this to be over.
I feel like I need a vacation and it's only been 2 weeks HA. I miss him like crazy, and if I could snap my fingers and he be back home, I would. I'd like to say it's getting.... more adjustable, but that may not be the case once he ships and we won't have any contact for weeks. I will probably fall apart all over again. I feel like this is what the military is all about, they want the best of the best so they will do whatever they can to break you down to find out who will give up and who will push through.
If any of you are military wives, or girlfriends, or whatever you may be, what got you through? Especially with kids, I feel like I'm going stir crazy not doing anything but being cooped up in the house. I do feel like I've been way stronger than I thought I would be. I think I cried more before my husband left than I do now. My almost 4 year old has been very testy and very emotional since his dad left, so thats probably been the toughest part so far.
Anywho, life feels crazy and hectic, and I feel so overwhelmed sometimes. (Not to mention I don't have any hobbies to pass the time.) Haha. I should probably discover one ;). To any of you military spouses waiting for your lovers to come home.... Godspeed to them! Stay strong and carry on.
-xoxo
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