There’s a time in your life when everything is about you and what you want. Your needs, your happiness, your desires. When the decisions you make are based upon what outfit you will wear for which party or event.
And then one day your world becomes revolved around someone else. It will be hard and exhausting and some days you will sit on your bedroom floor with your head in your hands sobbing uncontrolably because you think you've failed. Kids are screaming, house looks like a tornado came through it, you have a million things to get done and all you really want is to take a 45 minute hot shower without someone saying “mommy” . But then a little voice says “I love you” and wraps their small arms around your neck. You become the reason a tiny smile stretches across a kids face all because you looked at them. The moments like these are the ones that restore your faith. These are the moments when you realize that all the hardship and sleepless nights are worth it because another human being relies all on you and needs you more than anyone ever has or will. That little tiny human will love you more than anyone has ever loved you. And you will take a deep breath and be reminded why being a mother is the greatest gift God could have ever given you. Just as I was settled into my bed enjoying a moment with only myself to take care of, one of my tiny humans needed me. Little does he know that I need him more than he will ever quite need me.
Being a good mom comes with making a lot of mistakes along the way. It's taken me a long time to be easy on myself and realize that although it's hard, it's such an amazing gift and I couldn't see myself being anything but a mom. Once I accepted that I was going to fail a lot, it made it that much easier to tell myself it's okay! I'm not perfect by any means, I'm just sharing what motherhood is like from my point of view hoping that I can shake some of the fears others have about being a mommy. My mom used to tell me how there was absolutely no love like the love a mother feels for her children and I didn't believe her. I thought love was just love, nothing more to it. Then I saw my son Ryen for the first time after excruciating pain and a long labor and I looked at my mom and said, "now I know what you were talking about." It truly is the greatest love of all!Once your life becomes about someone else and not about just yourself, you become a whole new person. There will be most day’s when you feel unimportant because it’s seems as though everyone needs you when you are the one that just needs someone else, but at the end of the day a mother takes a step back and a deep breath and remembers that you ARE the most important person in the world. You are your child’s world and nothing less. Nothing beats that!
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