August 10th, 2009, 7:33pm, Ryen Mathew came into the world at 7lbs 13oz & 19in long! I was only 17 years old when I found out I was pregnant and newly 18 when he was born. It was probably the scariest time of my life, I had no idea how to take care of myself, let alone take care of this new tiny human being. After what seemed like days of being in labor, going through such excruciating pain and looking over at my mom telling her I couldn't do it anymore, I'm too tired, it's too hard, I've been pushing for hours and I just can't do it, I saw his sweet face for the first time and it was like none of that pain and labor every happened. Suddenly I knew exactly what I was meant to be, I knew exactly what unconditional love truly was. From that day forward my life would be forever changed and in the most incredible way I thought possible. I became a completely different person. I became what I would forever be known as.
A mom.
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Five years have gone by since that day, and so many things have changed in both of our lives. At just 10 months old you were practically running and you haven't stopped since. I got married and you received the best step dad God could have ever given you. You became a big brother at 3.5 years old and you do the best job at it. You finished preschool over exceedingly and learned how to make friends. You learned how to ride a bike with no training wheels and are well on your way to BMX. You are the most picky eater I've ever known and would live off cheese and Chef Boyardee if I didn't force you to eat anything else. You are so smart and I don't even know where you come up with half the things that come flying out of your mouth. These days are all about Ninja Turtles, Netflix, and being hungry every five seconds. You love your little brothers Weston & Silas more than anything in the world and I can see the pride you take over being their big brother.
You are absolutely curious about everything and anything. The amazement I have when I hear you ask me questions is unbelievable. It will be totally quiet on our car rides (rarely) when I hear your sweet voice ask me to tell you about my grandfather because you know I miss him. And then there are the questions I am most proud to hear you ask, like when you ask me to tell you about Jesus! Of all the times I feel like I've failed at being your mother, you prove to me just by simple questions, a sweet kiss and big hugs and innocent "I love you's" that in between all that times I loose my patience or forget to check that you still have your underwear on before you leave the house that I'm getting something right.
You are one of the greatest gifts our family has received. I just can't believe five years have already gone by and you are about to start kindergarten. Before I know it you will be on your way to college and I'll be wondering where in the heck the time went. Keep asking questions and being curious. Keeping wanting to know about the Lord, I know he is going to make you into such a beautiful man of God one day. Don't ever forget how loved you are Ryen. Happy Birthday, and here's to many many more to come.
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